... Meeting Old Folks ...

Excited to meet Ate Arlene and Kuya Andy today because I haven’t seen them for quite a while. They are my relatives who live here in Chicago. They picked me up at my apartment and then we bought some food for our lunch. When we arrived at their place I saw Dylan, Uncle Benjie and Auntie Don. Wow! Dylan is so gorgeous.

Then we went to Calanza’s Family and I met all the Calanza’s clan. They are so hospitable and there are lots of food served. Thank you so much for the warm welcome.

... Inspired ...

Yahoo!!! I can’t believe it, I finally got her YES!!! I want to shout and tell the whole world.

... Exploded ...

Love is in the air for the Nth time. My heart’s door suddenly opened again and wanted to share some space for a special someone. Actually I felt the warmth before and I wanted to express it but I’m afraid because of “What If” questions. What if I will make a wrong move? What if our friendship will be affected because of my decision? What If she rejects or dumps me? But I can’t control it anymore; I need to voice it out to be able to set me free. If I will just keep it to myself, I will regret this forever.

“Be a man to conquer you fears”, this is what I’ve always imposed to my friends. Now I need to apply it to myself. I don’t want to wait for the so called “RIGHT TIME” co’z for me every time is a right time. This is not just dealing with my ego but this for my own benefit.

After drinking some booze…hahaha…to get some courage and wisdom, I’ve talked to my special someone. I know she doesn’t have any idea what will happen during our conversation but I just surprisingly told her about what I feel for her. Crap! I hope she will not react too much. At first I know she won’t absorb easily what I’ve said but then I tried to explain everything as serene as I can.

After this I know everything will be alright but I still don’t know what will be her decision. So just wait for the next chapter if I can get her YES or not.

T.G.I.F., I’m looking forward for the long weekend.

... Artistic ...

While deleting all unwanted mails, I found the poem I wrote for the magic 10 before they go back home.

BITIN

--by aedner--

Parang kailan lang
Ang akala ko pangarap nagkaroon ng katuparan
Labing dalawang walang pagkakakilanlan
Bigla nalang naging magkakaibigan

Pagsasamahang unti-unting nabuo
Ngayon biglang hihinto
Mga dating tawanan at gulo
Isang segundo lang biglang guguho

Ngayon sa inyong pagbalik
Kapalit nito saki’y hinanakit
Hindi ko maisip kung paano ipipikit
Mga mata kong pilit kayong inuukit

Ilang araw nalang ako'y maiiwan
Pilit kong lalabanan ang aking kalungkutan
Makikipagsapalaran sa tadhanang naiwan
At sana ay ako’y Kanyang tulungan

Paalam na aking mga kaibigan
Salamat sa lahat ng ating pinagsamahan
Magkikita parin tayo sa ating mga daan
Upang ituloy ang ating nasimulan

... Ordinary Wednesday ...

Not in the mood to go to work but I have no choice, I need to fix myself and prepare my breakfast. Whaaat the F__$%#$%^^!…same old breakfast (cereal and milk), this is nuts. Crap I think I need to buy some supplies.

Nothing significant event happened this day; it’s just same ordinary Wednesday. After the dreary day I went home early and prepare my dinner. Sardines and burger…hahaha…I know you won’t eat these food at the same time but for me everything is possible. Just don’t offer me some mussels and rice co’z even though you will pay me $100 or more you will not get my YES. Weirdo, Yes I am.

I immediately setup my laptop after eating dinner to be able to talk to my family and my colleagues. Then I open my media player and I was surprised co’z the 1st song played was “I’m yours" by Jason Mraz. Thanks Choloboy for introducing this song.

"So, I won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait I'm sure
there's no need to complicate
our time is short
this is our fate, I'm yours”

... Cold Breeze ...

Fall season is almost here, the color of the tree leaves starts to change and you can feel the cold breeze of the air. Most people say that this is the best season here because the coldness is still manageable. This is also the best time to take great pictures but unfortunately all SLR experts are not around. No one will take pictures for me during this extravagant color changing season.

Even though it's only Fall season here, for me it's already winter. Everything is blue, cold and pale. I miss those laughing moments, bed time stories and smorgasbord.

... New Beginning ...

After the boring weekend, I woke up early to prepare myself for the new beginning: new life to fix, new road to travel and new friends to meet. Thanks to CJ because she picks me up early. I missed my Mazda 6 service with my driver Jake co'z I can’t do the usual things I do every morning like playing the radio and tuning it to my favorite station, opening the window to feel the breeze and buzzing up Marmi and Carla in their apartment.

Upon arrival, CJ accompanied me to my lead and she introduced me to my new team. Then I've noticed Sir Erwin and Rudy chatting, I felt the tranquility because I see another person I knew way back from ODC. At least now I know I will have a companion during lunch time.

The day passed so quickly and I haven't noticed that it's already 5pm maybe because we're so busy discussing all the procedures and the things that we need to do for the new project.

Thank you Lord for another wonderful day.

... Homesick ...

I never imagine my self creating a blog but since I'm alone here in the place called "The land of milk and honey" and trying to fight all the loneliness and boredom I think this is the only outlet I can use to express all the feelings I have. Even though I wanted to tell you everything happened here bit by bit I can't, co'z I can't remember all the details, so I will only share those memories that are still stocked in my head.

Let me give you an overview why I'm here, 12 consultants were chosen to travel here to become part of a testing team that will perform regression testing for Walgreens and I'm one of the magic 12.

During my stay here in Illinois with the magic 12 lots of good memories were built. Memories that I'll keep and treasure forever. Day by day we always find time to share all the experiences we had good, bad and green. We also had a chance to create a strong foundation to be able establish our friendship and legally enter each boundary. Even though sometimes we argued but in the end of the day we tried to fix all the broken pieces. I know these happy moments are just temporary and it will not last forever.

The time has come and the magic 10 needs to say goodbye and go back to our homeland. They will leave me alone in the dark but I’m sure God will not let me fall. The night before they leave they prepare and start to pack their belongings, I don’t want to see them putting back all their things but I have no choice but to pretend that I’m happy even though depression kills me slowly. As they wave their hands I can feel the pain little by little; my heart is like a car running 150kmp and suddenly collides.

Now that I’m alone I miss my family, relatives and friends. I can feel the most severe sickness in my life; HOMESICK makes me frail and start trying to replace the bliss into gloom.